I have finally given up my disdain for blogs. Though I want it noted that I still hate the word, specifically the way it sounds. I realized that I don't have to write entries in my blog like it was a journal. I can update people on things concerning me through my website. This, however, I can use to record my thoughts. I have this idea that I want to be a writer and it wasn't until someone deliberately asked me what kind of writing I wanted to do that I realized why I write. I've tried to write stories, and lord knows my papers for school are bad, so what is it I like to do? I see things and then I want to tell people about them. Good Lord, ask my poor mother. We car pool every day of the week and she knows more about everything I know then even I do some times. Anyway. I'm an observational writer. What's that? Well it's just like a comedian, except I publish my stuff here instead of doing standup and I'm not required by definition to be funny. It happens sometimes. Now I'm going to pause here and talk about something. You may have noticed I don't use paragraphs. That's because I don't think in paragraphs. You also might think that my blog entry is too long, and too boreing. Well suck it. You chose to read it. I don't do this so that people will know more about me. I do this because it helps me sleep at night. I have 90 thousand things going through my head. Now I don't have to worry if people think my blog is dumb because I've publicly stated that I don't care what you think. If I did this would be a message board and you could write all sorts of filth in response and have it listed right under my message. Another note. This blog is unedited. I don't go back and read what I've written to correct any spelling mistakes or rethink what I've written. Why? well first because that takes the fun out of this, and two because I'm lazy and three because I think most of the people who blog in a journal style....don't realize what they are doing. I know people who consistantly read their friend's online journals to see if their name comes up. I really don't think a journal should be online. There's where you get all your crap off your chest. I use my journal (and yes I keep one at home where no one can read it) to say things I wouldn't say to someone's face for whatever reason. And so what's the point of keeping a journal if you have to watch what you say because everyone you know could be reading? This is what happens to some extent on my website. I have to make sure I don't say cetain things, like "Man Larry's party bit ass." Have I said too much in this public blog? Maybe, maybe not, but the point is that I think most people don't think enough when they write stuff. I've seen situations that turned ugly for that reason, and so that's why whatever I put here, stays here. End of story. thanks for reading this far. Oh that brings me to another point. Have you ever going website hopping? If you find people who have even a little clue as how to make a website this can be done for hours. You go to a friend's site and you check it out, then you go to their list of friend's websites. You prolly know a lot of these people but try and find someone you don't know, then repeat. I once wondered my way onto a page from someone accross the country. I saw pictures of them at the Prom, at Auntie Jean's wedding, pictures of their dog, the time they went to camp. Try it some time. The reason I thought about this was, if someone has been blogging for long enough, and you have the time to read all the entries...you can learn an awful lot about them. I'll even give you a hint. I have another blog. http://dodgeballrocks.blogspot.com this other blog is not real. It even says so on the top, but people are stupid so my plan is to write entries there for a long time in the hopes that someone who can't sleep will try and read them all. If they have any brains they'll find flaws. My goal is make up a person and keep the details of each entry in line with the others, kind if like the writers for a show like star trek. anyway I've made no attempt to hide and claim to be a real person, but I think people will fall for it anyway, especially if the entries seem true. so check that out, that's you little bonus for reading this far.